{"id":5609,"date":"2021-04-13T22:21:21","date_gmt":"2021-04-13T20:21:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dlf.uzh.ch\/sites\/slavicumpress\/?p=5609"},"modified":"2022-08-06T10:18:06","modified_gmt":"2022-08-06T08:18:06","slug":"sverepost-natalie-budinova","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dlf.uzh.ch\/sites\/slavicumpress\/2021\/04\/13\/sverepost-natalie-budinova\/","title":{"rendered":"Sve\u0159epost \u2013 Nata\u0301lie Budinova\u0301"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 14pt\"><strong>Sve\u0159epost \u2013 Nata\u0301lie Budinova\u0301<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n<p><strong>I.<\/strong><br \/>\nSve\u0159epost<br \/>\nPost, post, kost<br \/>\nZa\u0165at\u011b se sna\u017e\u00ed\u0161<br \/>\ni kdy\u017e dob\u0159e v\u00ed\u0161, \u017ee<br \/>\ntoho vrabce<br \/>\ndo ruky nikdy nechyt\u00ed\u0161.<br \/>\nNem\u00e1\u0161 \u0161anci,<br \/>\nP\u0159esto zatne\u0161 zuby<br \/>\nP\u011bsti, p\u011bst do oka<br \/>\nFialov\u00e9 mo\u0159e popela<br \/>\nJako akvarelov\u00e1 skvrna<br \/>\nJako rozlit\u00e1 l\u00e1hev v\u00edna<br \/>\nV\u00a0u\u0161\u00edch jen la, la, la<br \/>\nCos to ud\u011blala, la, la<br \/>\nZatni a zmlkni<br \/>\nUchop sv\u016fj sen<br \/>\nProst\u011b se zvedni a jdi<br \/>\n(Na rozd\u00edl ode m\u011b)<br \/>\nI vy, bezesn\u00ed, jd\u011bte s\u00a0n\u00ed!<br \/>\nProboha jen u\u017e nesp\u011bte,<br \/>\nJinak nikdy nikam nedojdete<br \/>\njak j\u00e1 se du-kh-dus\u00edte<br \/>\nHrdlo napjat\u00e9, n\u00e1\u0159ky zmo\u017een\u00e9 \u2013<br \/>\n(A n\u00e9, \u017ee n\u00e9)<br \/>\nNekone\u010dn\u00fdmi krvav\u00fdmi slzami,<br \/>\nkter\u00e9 se proti proudu derou ven<br \/>\nzhrzen\u00e9.<br \/>\nZ\u00e1chodov\u00e1 m\u00edsa a v\u011bdra jsou jejich<br \/>\nnov\u00ed dozorce, j\u00e1 u\u017e ne.<br \/>\nP\u00e1l\u00ed, p\u00e1l\u00ed, \u017ehne,<br \/>\nJak \u00fasvit nov\u00e9ho pekeln\u00e9ho dne.<br \/>\nN\u00e1hle se cosi uvnit\u0159 trh\u00e1, ma\u010dk\u00e1 a buch, buch<br \/>\nJe\u0161t\u011b jeden posledn\u00ed srdce vzruch<br \/>\n\u2026a pak nic\u2026<br \/>\nM\u00e1m pokoj od bolesti,<br \/>\nSama jsem se vzdala, u\u017e jsem nevl\u00e1dala \u2013<br \/>\nTe\u010f m\u016f\u017eete m\u016fj osud rozpl\u00e9sti.<br \/>\nNebe, nebo peklo?<br \/>\nVzzzzzzzzzzzum.<br \/>\nDu\u0161e ul\u00e9tla vzh\u016fru k\u00a0posledn\u00edmu soudu.<br \/>\nT\u011blo nevl\u00e1dn\u011b le\u017e\u00ed a chyst\u00e1 se dol\u016f,<br \/>\nk\u00a0t\u00e9 ukrutn\u011b slizk\u00e9 hav\u011bti,<br \/>\njak to prob\u00edh\u00e1, to v\u00edte zpam\u011bti.<\/p>\n<p><strong>II.<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>Stesk<\/strong><br \/>\nKlidn\u00e9 lou\u010den\u00ed za zimn\u00edch ve\u010der\u016f,<br \/>\nS\u00a0milovanou tv\u00e1\u0159\u00ed na portr\u00e9tu,<br \/>\nT\u011bsn\u011b p\u0159ed t\u00edm ne\u017e se o\u017eeru.<br \/>\nP\u0159i\u0161el jsem o \u017eenu z\u00a0n\u00e1hrobn\u00edho portr\u00e9tu.<br \/>\nJedin\u00fdm denn\u00edm c\u00edlem je obchod,<br \/>\nDo novodob\u00e9ho chr\u00e1mu se vpot\u00e1c\u00edm<br \/>\nDen co den t\u011bsn\u011b p\u0159ed zav\u00edra\u010dkou,<br \/>\nProdava\u010dk\u00e1m natruc, nevhod.<br \/>\nKoup\u00edm si gin, n\u011bkdy jen v\u00edno,<br \/>\nPodle toho, kolik pen\u011bz<br \/>\nZ\u00a0v\u00fdplaty mi je\u0161t\u011b zbylo.<br \/>\nZatracen\u00e1 zledovat\u011bl\u00e1 hl\u00edno!<br \/>\nProkl\u00edn\u00e1m nebe i zem!<br \/>\nNesn\u00e1\u0161\u00edm tebe i se.<br \/>\nPot\u00e1c\u00edm se jako hv\u011bzd\u00e1\u0159,<br \/>\nHv\u011bzdami jsou mi hroby.<br \/>\nOde\u0161ly s\u00a0tebou ty doby,<br \/>\nKdy jsem t\u011b j\u00e1 coby<br \/>\nTv\u016fj princ na rukou nosil a<br \/>\nSm\u00e1l se od r\u00e1na do setm\u011bn\u00ed.<br \/>\nJ\u00f3, prej se \u010dasy m\u011bn\u00ed\u2026<br \/>\nZ\u00a0lidsk\u00e9 tv\u00e1\u0159e u\u017e jen \u010derv\u00ed potrava.<br \/>\nTe\u010f jsi mrtv\u00e1, a\u010d p\u0159ed rokem zcela zdrav\u00e1.<br \/>\nU\u017e rok je mi \u00fat\u011bchou fla\u0161ka,<br \/>\nAle c\u00edt\u00edm, \u017ee bez tebe se mi<br \/>\nCel\u00fd sv\u011bt hnusn\u011b sm\u011bje,<br \/>\n\u017divot je tylovsk\u00e1 fra\u0161ka.<br \/>\nSmrt snad poprv\u00e9 s\u00a0lehk\u00fdm \u00fasm\u011bvem<br \/>\nNa tv\u00e1\u0159i me\u0161k\u00e1,<br \/>\nV\u00ed, \u017ee chci za tebou<br \/>\nD\u011bl\u00e1 si ze m\u011b \u0161a\u0161ka.<br \/>\nPoj\u010f! Jen poj\u010f!<br \/>\nChci zas b\u00fdt po jej\u00ed pravici,<br \/>\nRuka v\u00a0ruce,<br \/>\nSrdce do \u0161eda se barv\u00edc\u00ed,<br \/>\nAle u\u017e nav\u017edy spolu,<br \/>\nSpolu dv\u011b t\u011bla l\u00e1skou tlej\u00edc\u00ed.<\/p>\n<p><strong>III.<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>Souzn\u011bn\u00ed<\/strong><br \/>\nA tak tam le\u017e\u00ed dv\u011b mrtvoly,<br \/>\nOna a On, snoubenci nav\u011bky.<br \/>\nZni\u010dehonic mrhol\u00ed a h\u0159bitov se ocit\u00e1 pod vodou,<br \/>\nto oblaka pl\u00e1\u010dou nad lidsk\u00fdm utrpen\u00edm,<br \/>\nnad p\u0159ede\u0161l\u00fdm odlou\u010den\u00edm a sou\u010dasnou pohromou.<br \/>\nJsou sv\u011bdkem v\u0161eho, co se kolem d\u011bje,<br \/>\nAle jak lidsk\u00fd cit prahne,<br \/>\nNemaj\u00ed pot\u0159ebu zemi darovat sv\u00e9 drahocenn\u00e9 kr\u016fp\u011bje.<br \/>\nT\u011bchto dvou se jim z\u017eelelo,<br \/>\nJejich cit byl \u010dist\u00fd.<br \/>\nKdyby nad jejich t\u011bly nebyla mramorov\u00e1 deska,<br \/>\nSrostla by vjedno, jako sta\u0159\u00edci v\u00a0Prom\u011bn\u00e1ch\u2026<br \/>\nTo v\u00edte, pro nebe \u2013 jako by se to stalo dneska.<\/p>\n<p><strong>PAHORKY<\/strong><br \/>\nB\u00edl\u00e9 horizonty nad\u011bje<br \/>\nse ty\u010d\u00ed n\u011bkolik kilometr\u016f p\u0159ede mnou<br \/>\nSta\u010d\u00ed ud\u011blat krok, zabo\u0159it se nohou<br \/>\ndo k\u0159upaj\u00edc\u00edho sn\u011bhu<br \/>\nNe, to nen\u00ed pra\u0161an, bav\u00edme se<br \/>\no zledovat\u011bl\u00e9 pe\u0159in\u011b Perinbaby<br \/>\nJeden krok, setina momentu,<br \/>\npohyb vp\u0159ed a nikdy zp\u011bt.<br \/>\nNa nad\u011bji se l\u00e9pe hled\u00ed z\u00a0povzd\u00e1l\u00ed.<br \/>\nP\u0159\u00edslib, \u017ee na n\u00e1s o p\u00e1r set krok\u016f d\u00e1l<br \/>\n\u010cek\u00e1 nad\u011bje je p\u0159eci daleko lep\u0161\u00ed<br \/>\nne\u017e zji\u0161t\u011bn\u00ed \u017ee ona sama rad\u011bji nen\u00e1vratn\u011b rozt\u00e1la<br \/>\nZe strachu ze zasn\u011b\u017een\u00fdch horkokrevn\u00fdch hlav,<br \/>\nZe strachu z\u00a0neotesan\u00fdch ur\u00e1\u017eek pronesen\u00fdch<br \/>\nNeomalen\u00fdmi \u00dasty Vyhro\u017euj\u00edc\u00edch Pros\u00edc\u00edch<br \/>\nA tak zd\u00e1lky pozoruji dalek\u00e9 vlo\u010dkov\u00e9 kopce<br \/>\nA\u017e nebudu m\u00edt na vybranou, proderu se<br \/>\nz\u00e1v\u011bjemi krystalov\u00e9ho zmrzl\u00e9ho sn\u011bhu,<br \/>\nAle zat\u00edm \u2026 Zat\u00edm se m\u011bjte m\u00e9 vrcholky,<br \/>\nVrcholky mou\u010dkou posypan\u00e9<br \/>\na pamatujte<br \/>\nA\u017e roztajete a vs\u00e1knete se, pak<br \/>\np\u0159edejte trochu vl\u00e1hy okoln\u00edm,<br \/>\nnahoru derouc\u00edm se rostlin\u00e1m.<br \/>\nJ\u00e1 si pak jednu jako vzpom\u00ednku na zimu<br \/>\nutrhnu a zalo\u017e\u00edm a<br \/>\na\u017e mi bude nejh\u016f\u0159, pak se k\u00a0v\u00e1m<br \/>\nObr\u00e1t\u00edm a promluv\u00edm.<br \/>\nBez \u010dek\u00e1n\u00ed na odpov\u011b\u010f se dot\u011brn\u011b<br \/>\np\u0159ikradu krokem holub\u00edm \u2013<br \/>\nA budu doufat, \u017ee v\u00e1s nav\u017edy neztrat\u00edm.<br \/>\nZat\u00edm pa, platonick\u00fd hlou\u010dku iluz\u00ed a nad\u011bje,<br \/>\njdu si pro \u010daj, kter\u00fd mne na rozd\u00edl od v\u00e1s<br \/>\ni fyzicky sv\u00fdm varem zah\u0159eje.<\/p>\n<p>Kr\u016fp\u011bje a\u017e potoky krveslasti<br \/>\nV\u00a0trni\u0161ti cest dalek\u00fdch<br \/>\nIo, Io, Io ionsk\u00e9 sloupy m\u00edj\u00edm<br \/>\nNe\u017e nastoup\u00edm na viu pikareskn\u011b pietn\u00ed<br \/>\nPrhaj, prhaj, prhaj?<br \/>\nJemn\u011b posk\u0159\u00edp\u00e1vaj\u00ed stlu\u010den\u00e9 v\u011btve<br \/>\nPrhaj, prhaj, prhaj!<br \/>\nNo, non \u00e9 pericolo, jdu d\u00e1l.<br \/>\nP\u0159esto se rozhl\u00e9dnu okolo, pou\u0161\u0165.<br \/>\nPrhaj, draj, draj, daj\u2026<br \/>\nL\u00edsmute\u010dn\u011b je mi na pouti,<br \/>\nPt\u00e1ci t\u00e1hle kr\u00e1, kr\u00e1, kr\u00e1kaj<br \/>\nA j\u00e1 se ohl\u00ed\u017e\u00edm po zk\u0159iven\u00fdch sloupech,<br \/>\nPo v\u011b\u0161\u00e1c\u00edch znak\u016f prohnil\u00fdch mor\u00e1ln\u00edch hodnot.<br \/>\nNe, je u\u017e pozd\u011b, \u017e\u00e1dn\u00fd sp\u011bch,<br \/>\nNikoho tv\u00e1 slova neovlivn\u00ed, nikdo se nemst\u00ed<br \/>\nJen Prhaj, prhaj, prhaj<br \/>\nDokola zoufale na cest\u011b zn\u00ed.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/dlf.uzh.ch\/sites\/slavicumpress\/?s=Nata%CC%81lie+Budinova%CC%81\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"><span style=\"color: #3366ff\"><strong>Nata\u0301lie Budinova\u0301<\/strong><\/span><\/a>, Charles University in Prague<\/p>\n<p>Edited by Galina Vondrackova, University of Munich (LMU) and Olga Burenina-Petrova, University of Zurich &amp; 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