{"id":16881,"date":"2025-12-31T00:05:19","date_gmt":"2025-12-30T23:05:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dlf.uzh.ch\/sites\/slavicumpress\/?p=16881"},"modified":"2025-12-31T12:51:02","modified_gmt":"2025-12-31T11:51:02","slug":"%d0%b7%d0%bb%d1%83%d1%8e-%d0%b1%d0%be%d0%bb%d1%8c-%d1%8f-%d0%bf%d1%80%d0%b5%d0%b2%d1%80%d0%b0%d1%89%d1%83-kurja-valu-ma-muudan-i-will-turn-this-harsh-pain","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dlf.uzh.ch\/sites\/slavicumpress\/2025\/12\/31\/%d0%b7%d0%bb%d1%83%d1%8e-%d0%b1%d0%be%d0%bb%d1%8c-%d1%8f-%d0%bf%d1%80%d0%b5%d0%b2%d1%80%d0%b0%d1%89%d1%83-kurja-valu-ma-muudan-i-will-turn-this-harsh-pain\/","title":{"rendered":"\u0417\u043b\u0443\u044e \u0431\u043e\u043b\u044c \u044f \u043f\u0440\u0435\u0432\u0440\u0430\u0449\u0443\u2026 \u2014 Kurja valu ma muudan\u2026 \u2014 I will turn this harsh pain\u2026 \u2014 Ekaterina Velmezova in original and in translation"},"content":{"rendered":"

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[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][vc_column width=»1\/2″][vc_column_text css_animation=»right-to-left»]KURJA<\/strong> VALU<\/strong> MA<\/strong> MUUDAN…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Kurja valu ma muudan<\/p>\n

kurjaks metskassiks<\/p>\n

ta jookseb mu eest \u00e4ra<\/p>\n

aga kui ta tahab tagasi tulla,<\/p>\n

naaseb lemmikloomana<\/p>\n

s\u00fcdamlik, tasane, armas<\/p>\n

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must nukrus muutub lumehelvesteks<\/p>\n

valge ja k\u00fclm lumi<\/p>\n

katab terve mu pea<\/p>\n

aga siis kuldsed salgud<\/p>\n

suudavad k\u00fclma sulatada<\/p>\n

ja tagasi k\u00fclm ei tule<\/p>\n

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halli hirmu ma muudan<\/p>\n

hallideks hallh\u00e4\u00e4lseiks lindudeks<\/p>\n

las nad lendavad minema<\/p>\n

aga hallh\u00e4\u00e4lseid linde ei ole<\/p>\n

ja varsti nad tagasi tulevad<\/p>\n

lauldes k\u00f5lavalt, \u00f5rnalt<\/p>\n

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ja siis<\/p>\n

nende juurde ma tulen<\/p>\n

\u00f5itsvale niidule suvel<\/p>\n

ja need lahked ja hallid linnud<\/p>\n

laulavad mulle \u00f5nnest<\/p>\n

(detsember 1992)<\/em><\/p>\n

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I WILL TURN THIS HARSH PAIN…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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I will turn this harsh pain<\/p>\n

into a vicious wildcat<\/p>\n

it will run away from me<\/p>\n

but when it wants to come back,<\/p>\n

it\u2019ll come back as a pet,<\/p>\n

sweet, gentle and meek<\/p>\n

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dark longing will turn into snowflakes<\/p>\n

cold white snow<\/p>\n

it’ll cover my head<\/p>\n

but the golden strands<\/p>\n

will surely melt the cold<\/p>\n

and the cold will never return<\/p>\n

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I will turn grey fear<\/p>\n

into grey-songed birds<\/p>\n

let them fly away<\/p>\n

but there’s no such thing as grey-songed birds<\/p>\n

and soon they’ll come back<\/p>\n

singing and chiming<\/p>\n

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and then<\/p>\n

I will approach them<\/p>\n

in the blooming summer meadow<\/p>\n

and the good grey birds<\/p>\n

will sing to me a song of happiness<\/p>\n

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Ekaterina Velmezova<\/span><\/a>, University of Lausanne & University of Tartu<\/p>\n

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Estonian translation by Ekaterina Velmezova<\/p>\n

English translation by Emily Wright<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n

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